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How to Go on After the Loss of Your Mother

Updated on November 18, 2015

Your mother is your first friend and playmate. She’s the one who rocked you as a baby, patched you up as a clumsy kid, and eased your heartaches as a teen. She helped you plan your wedding and coached you on the ins and outs of being a first-time mother. In a sense, your mother is the biggest part of your life. This article is about dealing with the loss of this woman.

Nothing can prepare you for what it’s like to lose your mom. I’ve had many friends throughout the years who have lost their own mothers. I felt sad for them and offered words of comfort. I cooked lasagna and bought cards to help my friends “get through” the grief. I had absolutely no idea though how excruciating it is to no longer have your mother with you.

No matter what I write in this article, if you haven’t lost your mother, you won’t fully understand the depths of grief one goes through. The pain is crippling, and it hits you at random moments. One minute you might be fine, and the next minute you are curled up in a ball on your bedroom floor in inconceivable pain. If you have lost your mother, then you’re probably sitting there nodding your head in agreement.

"The death of a mother is the first sorrow wept without her."

— Author Unknown

My Loss

How I miss this.
How I miss this.

My mother passed away on September 18th, 2011. She had suffered with lung cancer for the year and a half prior to her death. Her suffering was long and difficult for everyone. We all knew Mom was going to die. In fact, there came a point when we were praying for God to take her and end her suffering.

I thought I was prepared for Mom’s passing. I’m an educated, intellectual woman. I read all the books on death, dying, and grief. I knew it would be hard, but I figured I was ready to face it head-on. After all, losing a parent is a fact of life that millions of people before me have faced. Mom was very brave and was ready to die. I was going to be brave too. I thought I would grieve for a while, and then I would be able to move on with life. Nothing could have been further from the truth.

The following is based on my experience. Your experience might be completely different, but I’ll bet most of you can find some similarities between my experience and yours.

Coping With Grief

• Allow Yourself to Feel What You Feel

• Don't Put a Time Limit on Your Grief

• Remember Your Mom

• Allow Yourself to Have Bad Days

• Find Your Peace

• Smile and Live Your Life

You are likely to receive a lot of support from friends and co-workers in the days immediately following your mother's death.
You are likely to receive a lot of support from friends and co-workers in the days immediately following your mother's death.

The first few days after your mother dies are going to feel like a blur. You will function only in that you will make funeral arrangements, contact relatives, console family members, and go forward taking care of necessary tasks. Numbness is the perfect word for this time. The funeral will come and go, and so will the relatives and well-wishers.

After the burial, it’s time for life to go back to normal, right? Wrong! Life will never be normal again. It will be different, but it will never be as it was. How could it be?

For the first few weeks, your friends and coworkers will be wonderful. They’ll offer you lots of smiles and hugs. They’ll offer to take you to dinner and they’ll listen as you talk about how bad the pain is. You’ll hear a lot of “I’m here for you”, and “If there’s anything I can do” comments during this time.

After a couple months, it will seem like people have forgotten that you lost this important part of your life. They’ll stop asking how you are, and they might even look worried when you want to talk about your mom. You see, people who haven’t gone through this pain think there’s a period of grieving and that's it. After a certain time, you should be ready to move on with your life and "get over it."

But you will never get over it. The pain will lessen, and the moments of intense grief will be farther apart, but how can you ever get over losing your mother?

Allow yourself to feel just the way you feel.
Allow yourself to feel just the way you feel.

Allow Yourself to Feel What You Feel

Well-intentioned people will try to speed up the grieving process for you. They’ll try to keep you busy, and some of them won’t mention your mother’s name for fear of hurting you. But you must allow yourself to grieve. If you try to stay busy and put it out of your mind, it will catch up to you. You’re going to feel it at some point. It’s best to let it happen when it happens.

After Mom died, I tried to push away the grief. Any time I felt like falling apart, I would take deep breaths and get busy with something else. This worked for a little while, but not for long. The pain was not going away, and I needed to feel it. One night—two months after Mom’s death—I was sitting at the dinner table with my husband and children. The kids were talking about their day, and I was trying to actively listen. I felt like my chest was going to explode. I knew what it was, but was trying to ignore it. You see, grief is a very physical thing. You literally feel physical pain. I finally couldn’t take it anymore, and I got up and ran to my bedroom. My husband gave me some time alone. When he finally came in to check on me, I was curled up on the floor sobbing uncontrollably. After that night, I learned to allow myself to feel the pain. I didn’t ignore it anymore.

Your feelings will move up and down in an unpredictable way.
Your feelings will move up and down in an unpredictable way.

Don't Put a Time Limit on Your Grief

There is no right or wrong way to grieve, and there's no set time limit on the process.The old saying "Time heals all wounds" is not entirely accurate, but not entirely inaccurate either. I don't know if the wound of losing a mother is ever healed. The pain does get more bearable over time. But how long it should take? No one can say.

Five months after my mother passed away, the parent of one of my students died. I knew this man well, and I wanted to help my student. I planned to go to the funeral, but then the day before, I realized I couldn't do it. I hadn't been in a funeral home since Mom's wake, and I nearly hyperventilated just thinking about it. I told a friend I wasn't going, and she became aggravated. Her words were, "Your mom died in September. Don't you think it's time you moved on?" I probably don't have to point out to you that this woman's mother is still very much alive. I'll be honest, I felt like something must be wrong with me. Why wasn't I able to move on? Now, I realize that I was still grieving. I wasn't following any timetable, and it was okay.

Let yourself remember both the good and the bad things about your mom.
Let yourself remember both the good and the bad things about your mom.

Remember Your Mom

That heading sounds silly. Of course, you're going to remember your mom. She was your mom! What I mean here is that you should remember your mom for who she was—the good and the bad.

I spent months remembering my mom as this perfect human being who was, by far, the greatest mother who ever walked the earth. Mom was a wonderful person, but let's face it, she's was human. After a few months, I started having memories of the real mother I grew up with. She wasn't perfect, and we didn't always get along. Mom had a knack for being negative toward me, and I wasn't always patient with her. Putting Mom up on a pedestal wasn't fair to her, and she would've hated it.

Yes, remembering the bad times isn't always easy. Regret may rear its ugly head, but there's nothing you can do about it now. You can't push it away, because like the grief, it will find you. As they say, it is what it is. My mom knew I loved her dearly, and I knew the same about her. We didn't have the perfect relationship, but in the end, I was there by her side. I watched as she took her last breath, just as she watched me take my first. She was my mother. The good, the bad, and the ugly ... she was my mother, and I loved her.

Even long after your mother's death you will have days when you miss her dearly.
Even long after your mother's death you will have days when you miss her dearly.

Allow Yourself to Have Bad Days

It's now been a year and a half since Mom passed away. I miss her dearly, especially when I go visit my Dad. I hold up pretty well, though. I can laugh and smile as I tell my kids something Mom used to say when I was a child. I can crank up her favorite songs and sing as loudly as she would. I would say, I'm doing pretty well.

Some days are tougher than others. One reason I wrote this article is that yesterday was a particularly rough day for me. I woke up craving my mother's voice. I wanted to call her and hear her laugh. I wanted her to make me laugh. Mom had the best sense of humor of anyone I've ever known, and I needed that yesterday. I cried several times yesterday, and it was okay. I let myself feel the grief again. Those days will come, no matter how long it's been. Let it come.

Do the things you enjoy.
Do the things you enjoy.

Find Your Peace

People find comfort in different things. For some people, taking a walk helps. For others, a long, hot bath does the trick. The important thing is not WHAT you do, but that you do something for you.

There may be songs, smells, or images that bring comfort to you as well. For me, it's the sight of a hummingbird. This was Mom's favorite animal, and she had several items around her house with the tiny creature on them. During one of the darkest moments of my life—Mom's funeral—a hummingbird flew to the window of the church and lingered there for a minute. I have caught glimpses of hummingbirds a few times since then, and it they have brought me great peace. Silly? Maybe, but you find whatever works for you. Don't let anyone diminish those moments. I truly believe they are meant to help us.

Let yourself smile when you feel ready to.
Let yourself smile when you feel ready to.

Smile and Live Your Life

At some point after your mother's death, you will find reasons to smile again. I think this is one of the greatest things we can do to honor our moms and the love we have for them. Find joy again. Laugh heartily. Love deeply. Live like your mother would want you to.

On those days when you just miss your mom, don't fight it. Allow yourself to miss her. A wise friend of mine said, "Your mother deserves to be remembered. She deserves to be missed."

Find the Support of Others

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      Adele 24 hours ago

      Very nice article & so true. Its been 18 months & as I looked at her smiling face from the picture I have on my computer home screen this morning, the loss was so very raw again. Oh how i miss her & the unconditional love she gave me. My world will just never be quite the same without her. I love you my beautiful Mum. How very lucky I was to have you.

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      Emma 3 days ago

      I lost my mum suddenly 11 weeks ago...i can't see myself ever being happy again....if i could i would be by her side right now....but the only thing i have is time.

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      SiouxsieKJ 4 days ago

      In addition to my comment, and having read others', I would like to express my most sincere and heartfelt sympathy and empathy to everyone on here. The stories are absolutely heartbreaking but have made me feel less alone in an odd way.

      Healing hugs to you all xxx

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      SiouxsieKJ 4 days ago

      Thank you for writing this article. People who haven't lost their Mums definitely don't understand.

      I lost my darling Mum suddenly and totally unexpectedly on 1st September this year and I can honestly say that right now, I don't want to continue living. My Mum was my rock, my best friend, my soul-mate and my only comforter and I can't begin to explain how lost I am. I am a sad 54 year old singleton with no partner or children, very few friends and just my pet house rabbit for company. I've been out of work for months; have no money and am scared of losing my home as the mortgage company have always been problematic anyway. I'd been sad, scared and depressed for months - if not years - but had been putting it down to the constant battle of job-hunting whilst not feeling up to it, along with having to run my parents around in the car for their medical appointments, shopping etc.

      Mum [and Dad] lived a mere 5 min drive from my home where Dad now lives alone. Everyone assumed I'd move in with him to care for him but I'm now feeling as though I simply can't cope with doing that. He and I don't share the same bond that I did with Mum. He's not compassionate; he's been a passenger all his married life, having Mum wait on him hand and foot; he's managing fairly well with most things but can't/won't cook so I have to go cook for him and eat with him every evening [that's the first time I eat now anyway]. He sees me sobbing my heart out at the dinner table but doesn't say or do a thing to console me: he merely looks, looks away again and carries on eating.

      I didn't have much of a life beforehand, but the life I did have was centered around my parents ... and now I see it was centered around my darling Mum and Dad was 'just there'. I feel as though I have had my heart ripped out. I've no energy whatsoever and feel as though my very 'life force' has been snuffed out. I think I would have ended my life if I could have done so easily and painlessly by taking something, but I don't know how to and know that's not the answer, no matter how much I may want to.

      This article says that friends will rally round and invite you to dinners ... I've had none of that which makes me so sad and disappointed. I've had some wonderful online chats with people who have asked how I'm doing: one lovely lady inparticular who has really tried to take me under her wing, albeit virtually. I'm so grateful for that: she's kept me going. I have a handful of local friends who may have checked in by text or tried to phone my mobile occasionally [although not one call to my landline seems all-too-telling. Mum would phone at 10pm EVERY night]. Knowing I'm not eating until/unless I cook for Dad, one friend cooked me a snack lunch when I visited her. Another friend cooked me dinner when I visited her after having a meltdown at my Dad's and falling out with him. Others have cooked their meal in front of me when I've visited them without inviting me to dine, even when I have [atypically] said I hadn't eaten or was starving.

      I have 2 separate sets of hospital tests this week and whilst 1 friend kindly offered to take me to one, I had to ask for help, transportation wise, with the other.

      Some 'friends' have said "you know where I am" ... not helpful! Some have said "I'm here for you" ... ermmm, WHERE???

      You need people to just show up and really be there for you at a time like this.

      Where IS everyone?!?

      This just proves that we are all alone in this cruel life and boy, am I feeling that right now.

      The shock of Mum being snatched out of my life in a mere 2-hour timeframe is bad enough but the shock of her going first is horrendous. My Father is elderly, unwell and frail so everyone - including him - assumed he'd go first. I'm sorry to say this but had that been the way of things; had I been left with Mum; this would all be ok now. Yes, we'd be sad, but because Dad doesn't really 'contribute' and 'was just there' and has been a 'passenger' all this time, Mum and I would now be starting a new life together and going places together, within the limits of her mobility.

      I don't know what the heck I'll do at Christmas. Mum WAS my Christmas. My Brother [IF he visited] and Dad weren't and aren't remotely interested or 'into' it. All the time I see things I'd usually be buying for Mum now; find places I could have taken her to and everywhere I look, there are painful reminders of what I've lost in her leaving me.

      I have never felt so isolated and alone in my entire life and I don't want to live on this earth without my darling Mum.

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      hilda alice 4 days ago

      my mum passed away on 8/07/2017 my life has never been the same ,some days are extremely rough to make matters worse her life was cut shot (murdered ) by our so called uncle (fathers young brother )all in the name of jealousness and greed ..i have failed to come to terms with her death. i miss her so much

      i feel completely lost and empty

      she was the pillar of our family ,our friend

      may her soul rest in peace

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      Marine Marietta 4 days ago

      Thank you for replying. I do appreciate it.

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      DanAlabam 5 days ago

      Marine. I am so sorry....If you are considering reporting the abuse, you must posses hard concrete evidence / facts before reporting her.

      I personally think it will make grieving much more difficult that it already is...unless you have the facts, then leave it to the law to follow up which they will.

      I do not know what else to say but do not do anything rash, do what is right, seek counsel. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

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      Marine Marietta 5 days ago

      How do I overcome the death of my mother who was subject to elderly abuse.

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      Savanna Eagle 5 days ago

      I'm having a really hard time with my mother's death, she passed away at 41 from liver failure and a mix of not taking her insulin. She was alone in her apartment. I didn't have the chance to say goodbye. I'm so lonely and have no sibilings to help me relate and get through this. I just started university and she was so proud of me. I don't know how to go on. I feel like I'm suffocating. She was my rock, my best friend and deserved to live longer. Most people lose their parents when they're all grown up but im only 18 and I still need her. I don't know how to deal with this. :(

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      Marine Marietta 5 days ago

      I lost my mum in September. She was subject to elderly abuse by my older sister. I dont know where to start from. The anger and rage I have for my elder sister, its not funny. I try to get the vision out of my head, and how she treated my mother. The pain is excruciating that i feel, I need to join my mother. I spent a week in the crises centre. I hope this grief and anger passes.

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      Maggi 5 days ago

      Thankyou for sharing your article and to all the comments from other people who are grieving. For a while I have felt that my grief is not normal. My beautiful mother and best friend passed away from cancer just over two years ago and I still cry almost everyday. I miss her presence, cooking, spending so much time together and thought how could this happen but it does. That strong caring mother who was always there me like no-one else and always made me feel better, she was someone I could talk to about anything and to me the best mother anyone could ask for. I feel so lonely without her and feel that part of me has died with her. After reading all the comments I know that I am not alone in my journey and can relate to you all. Thank god I found this site.

      Blessings to you all

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      Brendan mcdonagh 5 days ago

      Me and my seblings lost our lovely mother on June 4th 2017 she was just turning 65years she killed by 3 mastiff dogs it's been 5 months now abs some days I think it's getting harder I'm currently traveling Asia the hardest part is she died a loan and nobody got to say goodbye it eats me up everyday

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      Jacqueline L. Grant 5 days ago

      I thank God and you for sharing this article!! My mother passed away two months ago and I really thought I was going crazy. So much of what you said is so real to me. I could have written this myself. I needed this. Thanks again!

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      Victoria goforth 6 days ago

      My mam died on the 20th of September 2017. She had lung cancer and 8 days after she was diagnosed she was dead. I feel so much pain. I miss her with all my being. I saw her every day she was my rock. My life I don't know how I am going to carry on without her. My world has been shattered. I feel so sad. I want to hear her voice to tell me it's ok. Xxxx

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      Walter 6 days ago

      my mother passed Friday suddenly I didn't have the chance to encourage her to fight like I've always done I feel empty and helpless

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      Kennedy 6 days ago

      Jeez, I cried a lot reading this even though I haven't even lost mine yet. I can't even bear the mere thought of losing her and I hope to still have her in my life for many more years to come.

      My mom lost her mom when she was around my age (in high school) to cancer and I can't imagine how tough it must have been for her. Her father wasn't really present to begin with so all she had left was her two older brothers.

      All our moments, both the good and bad, shes an incredible, amazing human that I call mom. I will always remember her, the lessons she's taught me and all that she's done for me.

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      Thumree 7 days ago

      I lost my mother of cancer six years ago. I think for a year or more the pain was unbearable, now I guess I learnt to live with the pain. But life is not same anymore. Everywhere I go, everything I do, I wish she was here to know. Every little achievement is somewhat less without her. I thank you for the post and I want to tell you and all others who have gone through the pain, that she is there for you always. I feel it now, I feel her whenever I am helpless, I think she listens to me. I can see her smiling when I am happy. May be because I am part of her, she is never really gone when I am alive. She lives in my heart.

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      Sophie 8 days ago

      I cried reading this I lost my mum last year February 18th, I have moments where I'm full of smiles next I'm sat in my room crying wishing my mum was still here, it's so hard my life has changed so much it's not the same anymore... i feel like I will never get over grieving i miss her so much.. I have 2 brothers but after the loss of my mum we ar not so close we not seen each other since the day of my mums funeral it's not easy I just wish life turned around like go back in time. I just want mum mum back but I know that will never happen and it's hard and I cry all the time

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      Brantley 8 days ago

      Thank you for this my Mum passed away 3 weeks ago today. I'm inconsolable.

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      Mark 8 days ago

      You just gotta take one day at a time mique .....the first weeks and months are unbearable.....it's normal for those of us who have huge hearts like you ....it means you loved .....this is a good thing

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      monkiegrass 8 days ago

      I lost my beloved mother 4 years ago to cancer. My father, sister and I embraced her as she passed. Time does heal so they say. Sometimes it catches up with you when you least expect it. Today was a hard day. I miss her so much. Love to you all going through this.

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      Debbie Thomson 9 days ago

      So many of us feeling a pain and emptiness we never thought possible. But what a tribute to all these wonderful mothers.

      My darling girl went to be with God almost 5 month ago. I was thankful she was no longer in pain or confusion. But I can't forgive myself for her having to be in a nursing home her last months because we couldn't look after her. These are memories that haunt me because I promised her that I would never let that happen, yet I couldn't stop it.

      I know she would forgive me as she alway did but it is hard to forgive myself. I know my sisters think I didn't want her to come home to us where she lived for the previous 2 and a half years. This makes my pain even greater because I never imagined I couldn't look after her, and I have cut off my sisters for kicking me while I am at the lowest part of my life.

      At least I knew she loved me and she knew I loved her. I only hope there is a God as she loved Him and deserved to be with Him after her time with us. I may not cry everyday in the future as I do now but I will never stop grieving for the remarkable woman who made me her proud daughter.

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      gloria 9 days ago

      I lost my mom 8/25 /2017 I don't know how to get thour this

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      Kim 9 days ago

      My mom had a strike 3 yrs ago..I've tried suicide in february. I don't know how to cope. My mom is everything to me and I can't imagine life without her. I'm scared I may attempt suicode again. I'm always depressed. I would give anything to have her back. I miss her so much. I feel abandoned and alone. It seems like being angry is easier than crying. I can't imagine breathing past her death. She made 80 yrs old in june. This is the hardest thing I've been through..I love her so much. I would give my lice for her in a second

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      Migue 10 days ago

      I lost my sweet mother September 19,2017 I feel like when she died I died with her my heart and my soul have a hole that my loving MOM filled I find myself having the need to call her but she isn't there so I just cry. I have three child and one brother with three beautiful children also they are all there for me I just don't feel right bothering them with my pain I sleep maybe four hours a night so during the day I can't think clearly I have no energy I feel like right now I can't be a mother too my own children and then the guilt fills my heart my children need for me to be their mom but I don't feel like a mother I also have a husband our marriage isn't the greatest but we are both hangin in there. Could someone please. Help me I have had a hard time just breathing I don't eat much Iam a very sick emtionally and physically I feel suicidal I have moments where I just want to die iam not well mentally. hELP

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      Nomthandazo 10 days ago

      I suddenly lost my mom about a month ago- the pain is excruciating. A part of me has died with my mom. We were very close she knew I loved her very much. I have been crying everyday since I saw her dying 3rd Sept 2017, few days before her 75th birthday. I miss her all the time....

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      Laura furniss 10 days ago

      I lost my mum 3 days ago and I have no idea how I can continue , she's missing out on the kids growing up and she loved her grandchildren and myself and my brother we was her world! I hope to God that she is safe and well where ever she is ! I need this pain to go away!

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      10 days ago

      Thank you! This really helped me a lot. I lost my mom on June 15, and I have not been the same. I feel all alone at times. It is really hard feeling alone. However, staying busy allows me to cope with it much better.

      Thanks,

      Again

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      JB 10 days ago

      Thank you for this. My Mom went to be with God on 10/5/17 after battling cancer for 7 years. I am worried about how this next year will go. The past couple days have been a blur but I have also had moments of emotional pain which I have never experienced before. I am reading everyone’s comments below and gaining insight and comfort from our shared experiences. God bless.

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      Shana 11 days ago

      My mom died a little over 2 weeks ago, unexpectedly with an aneurism. The pain is excruciating. I just want to crawl into a hole and die...but then I think of my daughter, My 2 brothers and the rest of my family. This keeps one foot in front of the other...it has to get better at some point. I hope?

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      Conrad 12 days ago

      Thank you for this

      I lost my mom last night

      i had 2 years to prepare

      aparently there is no such thing

      not everyone has someone to hold on

      some of us are alone

      I am so lost

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      Conrad 12 days ago

      Thank you for this

      i lost my mom last night

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      Anna 12 days ago

      My mom passed from breast cancer just four months ago. I laugh and cry and live my life the way she would have wanted. I find comfort in her spirit, my many photos of her, and by wearing some of her clothes and jewels.

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      shatone darden 12 days ago

      My mom just passed away September 16 and the hurt is undescribable I'm like a rollercoaster she meant so much to me and my biggest supporter now I'm here in this world with no one whom have true sincerity as I write this tears fall but I know she's in a better place but the pain is too fresh.

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      Sonia pate 2 weeks ago

      Today is just a horrible day, my mom's been gone a year, my whole life is different, and I'm trying to exist without her, that's as simple as I can put it

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      Susie 2 weeks ago

      My mother passed October 3, 2016 and this has been the hardest year of my life. I have not figured out how to live my life without her. She had dementia and the end of her life she may not have remember everything but she never forgot that I was her "Baby" always. I still cry almost every day and now I am at the point I do not want to get close to anyone because I never want to feel this type of hurt in my heart every again. I have never pictured life without her. I knew it would happen one day, and thought I was ready. I even told her when she was the sickest that I would be ok. I lied to her. I am not ok. I have been to grief support groups, still see a grief counselor, and have friends that try to help but nothing seems to help. I miss her so bad it is starting to make me physically sick. I was her only child so I do not even have siblings to share this with. This is a lonely life without your mother. I hate it.

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      Tash 2 weeks ago

      I lost my mom on 17 July 2017 and its been hardest thing ever since. a month to her birthday 17 August.

      I know she lived a life for her family and thou some times it was not easy but I know she is with Christ as she loved the lord dearly. today I weep because I miss her and I long to hear her voice ..everyday of my life I called her even if it meant 3 times a day...today I just wish I could see her and tell her that I appreciate her and all she has done for me. Family and friends will only be there for a while and after that u sit alone and no matter what you say or ask ....the void is there. the joy she brought into the house is gone and its hurts so bad that even thou the memories are ....she is gone...but in seconds it all happened. I begged her to hold on... thou she looked and then seconds it like she wasn't looking at me anymore. Mom I wish I could have you back.

      Today God is all I have and he can only help to ease and make our lives a little better...right now .... tears just keep rolling ..... people say time... I don't believe that ... mom I love u

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      Phillip 2 weeks ago

      My mother passed away from cervical cancer on May 4th 2017....She was everything to me...she believed in me more than anyone else did and she was always by my side every step of the way through life....She was the closest person I had in my life...When she left, I felt incredibly empty and I didn't know how I was going to make it through..Some mornings I get up and I realize I cant pick up the phone and hear her voice again....It hurts but I thank God for his grace and strength because he has pulled me through and still is.....I know she's with Jesus now and that gives me comfort and I know deep down that it would make her happy for me to live my life to the fullest...Miss you Ma...:(

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      Lisa 2 weeks ago

      My mom went to be with Jesus on July 29th 2017. I MISS her soooo much. She was a very big part of my life. Some days I'm okay and somedays, like today I feel SAD and I don't want to do a thing!!!!! I would love to just sleep all day, nut i didnt. I have to be present for my family, but when theyre at school.... I know itll get easier cause I lost my dad in 2009, that was very hard. God will see me through this, but its a journey not a sprint. Let yourself grieve.

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      Caitlyn 2 weeks ago

      My mom passed this Friday (the 29th of September 2017), and I don't know how to deal. It was very sudden, she was only 38 and I'm 18.

      We weren't super close, so my last memories of her are arguing. I love her more than anything and never thought this would happen so soon. I just want to tell her once more how much I love her

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      Zo 2 weeks ago

      My mom passed away on Sept 28th 2017 from Colon Cancer this pain is unbearable. We did everything together and my daughter loved her so much. I'm 34 without a mom or dad an my daughter doesn't have any grandparents . My aniexty is taking over no clue how I'll make it threw my mommy funeral. I miss her so much this can't be life. My mommy was all I had it hurts getting out bed because I know I won't be able to see her.

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      mummy's gal 2 weeks ago

      its been 7yrs since i lost mummy..i still grief and cry. At times i feel lonely sad deppressed especially when life knocks me down.

      i spend most of my days acting strong but deep down am weak and craving for mums love attention and care.

      continue resting my super woman friend teacher strength love and mummy

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      Lonelydaughter 2 weeks ago

      Life has been awful to say the very least since my mother passed away. I am incredibly lonely. I have never cried so much as I have been crying since she died. Nobody cares about me or loves me like she did. I don't see the point of life if I have to live every day with so much pain. Nobody appreciates my achievements. I can't bear the thought that I have to face this horrible world without her. I am severely depressed. Nothing seems to bring me comfort. People just don't understand the extent of my suffering. I miss you mommy and I love you. I wish you were still here...

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      Sweetshop 2 weeks ago

      My mum suffered for 8 months with lung cancer. She passed away 21 months ago and I'm devastated. I have 2 beautiful children but I feel lost and alone and some days I just yearn to be with her.

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      Pokeymom 2 weeks ago

      My mom moved in with us after my dad died 14 years ago, we have worked together, moved 3 times she has been a big part of our lives. On July 12 this year she had pain in her side so I took her to the Dr. We went right to the hospital and 23 days later my mom passed away. She had cancer and never got out of bed again, she wanted to come home once before she died.

      I did get her home on the Friday and she passed away at home on the Sunday, being in the funeral business I took care of my mom, taking her from the house to the funeral home. I miss my mom so much I have a hard time being in the house because she is not here, I cry every night for her.

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      Tina 2 weeks ago

      My mother passed away August 15th, 2017 from Pulmonary Fibrosis (only 20% of her lungs worked). She suffered for four years. Last three months she couldn't get out of bed. I had to spend the first 30 days after she passed away, emptying her house for a new tenant. There hasn't been one day yet that I haven't cried for her. I feel empty without her. She was 71 years old, and I'm 50. Holidays will be sad...

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      Penny 2 weeks ago

      I lost my mother due to cancer on the 20th September 2017. I miss her so much I dont know if I'll be able to carry on as she was our suppost system. I am 18 years old. I feel like Im suffocating when I think about my mother. I love her so much.

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      Sherry Womack 2 weeks ago from Moreno Valley

      I am having a tough day I lost my mama to cancer a little over a month ago and I had her at my home and watched her take her last breath. I just buried my brother yesterday who also died from cancer.

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      Mark 2 weeks ago

      Hey Cory ..did your sisters have power of attorney....was money involved .....maybe they slowly killed her like my sister and husband did to my Mom 3 months ago.....sorry ....worse pain in world Mom dying

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      Cory alexander 2 weeks ago

      I lost my mom on September 21 2017. I was there her lastnight alive for an hour after work kissed her 3 times as if to say I love you. Then left. The next morning I started messaging at 8 no answer. Drove over to her house. The nightmare has been overwhelming ever since. She was my bestfriend. She was only 54. They have no cause of death for me and my sisters. All they can say is she died peaceful in her sleep. This is way to hard.

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      TravisBradley11 2 weeks ago

      @charlsie I lost my mom to cancer on August 26th, 2017. Their is no way to predict the way you will feel, but you need to take the necessary steps to begin healing. You will have a lot of bad days where you question "why" she had to go, it is critical on those days that you find someone to vent to. Just remember your not alone, I'm sure you have people who care for you and are willing to help with your healing. She's in Gods hands now my friend

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      Charlsie 2 weeks ago

      We just lost our mom to cancer onSept 24, 2017. To be honest I don't know how to feel at this time. The only thing I know is that I have NO parents to call on any more.

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      linzi 3 weeks ago

      i have just been told my mother has terminal cancer and has six months to live, and i dont know if i will be able to cope with loosing her,i am a only child and she brought me up as a single woman and im 41,she is my rock my best friend i am trying to be strong for my daughter , xx

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      joseph 3 weeks ago

      im 40 yr old I lost my mom 2 months ago its hard feeling i cry almost every day the pain is deep

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      Mandie 3 weeks ago

      I lost m mum 4years ago still miss my Mum so dearly not aday goes past that I don't think of my Mum. have good days and bad days. My condoleneses to u Donna

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      Donna 3 weeks ago

      My mum died on Tuesday 19th September 2017 her death was so totally unexpected and I still can't get my head around the fact that I'm not going to be able to look at her or talk to her bodily anymore . It is so hard she was my rock and my Best friend she got my through all my hard times and was there every step of the way last year when I was diagnosed with breast Cancer if it wasn't for her I would have never got through that . No words can express how dearly I loved her nothing will ever taste,smell or be the same again . It does really feel as if your heart has a great hole in it .

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      Vijay 3 weeks ago

      Dear friends,

      this situation is worst for a man or woman to coup up with after death of his or mother.In my case I being the last member of my family knew the impact on the death of my mother on 31.10.1988.

      On 30th Oct was the last time i saw her and left for work.I had separated from my family consisting of my 1st ,2nd & 3rd Elder sister and mother.Though she had a heart attach she was on medication.It was my mistake I shouldnt had left her.I had Rs 1000 and she asked me if i could give her 1000 rs I told I will bring it next day.But I didnt knew that would be the last time i would see her.After lunch a call came from home saying mom passed away.I cried in front of my boss and many other colleques.I mmediately i asked for cash withdrawal against cheque I withdrew the cash of Rs 1000 meant for hospital admission ( actually I had reserved this money to purchase a small black & white TV but as per God's command this money came of use for paying for her last journey) for cortage.

      After all was over I went to my house where we lived.She use to sit on a dining chair but after her death I felt she was still sitting on that same chair.I butsted in uncontrollabe painfull situation my wife was not beside my side I dint mind I cried and cried deep from the bottom of my heart my crying could be heard below and they asked why Vijay is crying so lould I was continously saying I want amma I want amma.

      I felt half my life was over.

      According to me If mother dies half the life of a person is over and when wife dies full life is over.

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      Mark 4 weeks ago

      Lost my mom 3 months ago....my mom trusted my sister and husband the rewrote her will took power of attorney and robbed all her money credit cards retirement account and Home.....mom came down with lung cancer and they didn't even tell her took her out of her home sold her home took all her money dragged her to Florida put her in condo they inherited 10 years ago from my sisters husband mom they robbed and killed as well .......as they use my moms money to fix up house scum bag husbAnd bought on water and my mom dies 4 months later ......no funeral wake or nothing for the best woman in earth .....worthless police sheriff adult protection services should all be prosecuted by FBI along with my piece a shit sister and husband for grand larceny and premeditated murder of my mother......I flew to Florida from NY to say goodbye to my Mom behind glass window in a warehouse for 15 minutes before she was lit on fire to destroy evidence of all the drugs they kept feeding her .......this is a fuckin crime and my mother deserves justice .....to say I'm devastated is an understatement....

      My sister and husband need there heads handed to them fuckin low lifes......don't talk to anyone unless they lost their mom .....or their lack of emotion and insensitivity will piss you off .....I love and miss you my mother Mary....I tried warning you and protect you from those 2 filthy animals you where deceived by .....you just wouldn't listen to me for 8 years and now your gone ....the pain is beyond words .....it will never leave me until Jesus comes back and makes everything right and judges every wrong ...Amen

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      Copping 4 weeks ago

      I lost my mom just about 1 year ago. Reading this article had the Water Works going. It was hard that day and it's still hard today. I will think of all of you and pray that we can all deal with our pain.

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      Sad 4 weeks ago

      I lost my mom May 2013 i thought i would be over it by now but I'm not she was my mommy we did so many things together I miss that so much now I'm wondering if you ever get over it are do you just learn to deal with it because I'm not over it by a long shot

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      Michele Medina 4 weeks ago

      I lost my mother three weeks ago and man it is so painful I can barely function. I just want to scream and say "Why?????" You know it's inevitable that your parents will pass away, but man when it happens, it's like "What the ..." I miss my mother so much that I would do anything to have her back.

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      Coretta Johnson 4 weeks ago

      I lost my mom 4-13-15 and brother 6-15-15. My daughter told me to stop talking about their death and move on. This was tragic loosing my brother to a wrong way driver. We never recovers his brain, it was gone. Why can't she see why this hurts so bad. My mom died to neglecting docters. But, their gone. I've started having seizures, and it hurts like he'll. Someone tell me how to explain the pain to my daughter she's 22yrs old.

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      jacqueline mg nielsen 4 weeks ago

      i lost my mom just 2 weeks ago..its so hard!!

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      Peggy Sioux 4 weeks ago

      No matter how old we are I don't think we're ever prepared. I lost my Daddy in 1998 and my mother almost two years ago. Yes most days I function like the mature capable nearly 50 year old woman that I am. Yet I still have times when I will curl up on my bed and cry like a small child. Oh how I miss them both.

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      Lisa 4 weeks ago

      It's almost 4 months since my mom passed, and it still doesn't seem real. I miss her so much.

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      Bobby 4 weeks ago

      I lost my mom a week ago....I miss her

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      HEMALATHA VARADHAN 4 weeks ago

      No one can replace mother in this world

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      Thnkr917 4 weeks ago

      I lost my mother tonight, suddenly. I've already gone through stunned and numb and breakdown and back to stunned again and I haven't even got on the flight back "home" yet. Little thoughts like "why didn't I save one of those messages she left me, now I'll never hear her voice again". puts me into tears. I have to deal with this by myself. My son is holed up in his room, dealing in his own way, I guess. We are across the country from our family. We didn't always get along, but boy I never thought it would hurt this much.

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      Broken 4 weeks ago

      My daddy died of cancer on May 22 2017 . My momma died exactly 3 months later of a massive heart attack while visiting my Daddys graveside for his Birthday I am just numb I feel empty and broken.

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      MomsFavGrl 4 weeks ago

      I lost my mom almost three months ago and the pain runs so deep. My dad passed just 2.5 years ago and I'm an only child so no one feels my pain. I reached out to a grief counselor but never received a call back. I'm a newlywed whose marriage is going downhill and I also have a child with a disability. Life is so hard and through it all I could always depend on my mom. She was my very best friend, my everything and I knew she loved me in life but in death I see how she dedicated her life to My daughter and I and that fills my heart. I feel my relationship with God getting closer and I know that's something she always wanted. I never imagined that I'd be in my early thirties without parents... The thought really breaks my heart, but then I think of young children who lost their parents. I thank God for the great times we shared and they are all trophies and bakebadges of honor to me. I'm not afraid of death anymore. Life is different. It will never be the same. I love you Mom.

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      Ilovemymom978 5 weeks ago

      I lost my mom July 20th 2017, mom was sick with COPD was on oxygen, and was always in pain. She was on pain meds for over a year. Her Copd progressed breathing got more and more difficult walking became less and less in and out of the hospital for 6 months at least 1 time a month 4 months in a row. Every time she went she got X-rays nothing really show mulitable times. Than begining of June Drs told her they saw couple spots in different areas of her body. Wanted her to do a biopsy in her liver, asked if she wanted to do it she said yes, I told her I'm moving in with her and going to help her get around and she's not going to be alone found my dog a home moved all my things into storage and began my journey with her my mom new I was trying to get everything done I was filled with pain stress a lot of feelings my mom new it she saw it in my eyes everyday it was a struggle to be there and get everything done at the same time I love her with everything inside of me and doing what I was doing was a choice I made I promise I made to us both her health was failing, than her dr because she was in and out of the hospital messed up on the amount of pain peds mom ended up being rushed into the hospital and was put on life support. I spoke to the dr told them everything and head my moms hand asked her if she wanted off the machine she was uncomfortable with that thing down her throat. I asked her if I took her off if she would be strong for me she said yes I took her off she was strong took her home days later we were out and about shopping as much as I could as much as she could with her energy and breathing problems, they increased her pain medication it was than became to much for her little body she would take it and not be able to get up she needed to take that from Friday to Monday till I could get her to the office so we could change it, 3 days she was out of it Monday came she didn't want to go and it was like that for a couple weeks hard to even get her up to go to the back room she started retaining water in her angled she wanted a medical bed she made me promise she would stay in her bed no more needles no more nothing she made me promise no morphine I promised night after night praying for a miracle it never came I wasn't able to keep that promise. To her, in the morning of the 18th my brother made it so 911 came, while in the ambulance they started to put her on life support while in the hospital there is 2 types of life support on that a forced mask placed on her face or the tube they wanted the tube I said no do the other one so they did, she made it. They were poking her as she made me promise no more her potassium was too low sugar was too low but in a couple of hours her color was getting better but then the doctor came in and told us that she would probably never get off that mask and that she would probably die within 12 hours, that we should do care and comfort which was morphine, I begged to let me take her home they were against it! I than told the drs they were wrong I'm taking her off the mask please have the oxygen in the bag and she will breathe on her own again so for second time I held her hand and asked her again if I could take her off and if she would be strong and she said yes and she did and she was breathing with just the oxygen again, dr told us she is suffering and we need to know that her organs are failing and at this point icu and drs said care and comfort was the right thing! I wouldn't do it my brother made the choice to do it. I wasn't happy she's only 63 and told me she don't want to die and this wasn't real to me next thing we are in a room and the morphine started my mom lived 2 full days on morphine passed on the 20th in all the ways she's fears and didn't want all because I didn't tell 2 ppl to back off my mom told me "where there is a will there is a way" my brother held the WILL from me till the day after she passed and on the WILL MY MOM MADE ME Number one health care proxy durable power of attorney and power of attorney she told me where there's a will there's a way for a reason if I had had that well my mother would still be here today I will live with this regret for the rest of my life. I hope my brother has to answer for his part and I pray my mom know I tried to the best I could!

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      Tricia 5 weeks ago

      My mom went to heaven. It will be 3weeks ago this Wednesday. I cry a lot. Walking by her place, seeing her church, when I go to the store and see cards for mom. Its really hard. But I have to allow myself to feel the pain. .

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      Harris 8510 5 weeks ago

      I lost my mother February7th 2017 she was my best friend I was her baby boy at 46 years you turn into a child all over again when you loose your mother. She was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer December 9th 2016. Grief is like a roller coaster. I thank you for this support group. I am lost without my mother I tried to work and stay busy and that ended up being a crash and burn out. I was wondering am I the only person that feels like a part of me is gone with my mother. Sometimes life is just a blur I take it day by day. I thank you for this outlet. Maybe my words will help someone else along the way.

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      Shaun 5 weeks ago

      My mom died this Saturday and don't know any feeling to word. I was at her home stherings more things for er spitsl stsy. To make her more comfortable and happy. I stopped at home and recieved a callthe she in cardiac arrest. I did not get tho say bye or i love you. I shouldve been better to her.

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      Tsh 5 weeks ago

      My mum passed on 13th july 2017, just over a year since my father died. She would have been 62 now. Life is hard especially because i was the last born and only girl. She was my everything. Im still studying and i feel so sad because both my parents died before i could fulfill all plans i had for them. Its hard..

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      Nur 5 weeks ago

      I lost my dear mom in Nov 2016. She was my best friend, we were always talking on the phone. She had ovarian cancer / sufferred a lot. I still feel numb, I cant stand not having her around. I am keeping myself busy. I miss my mom. I am so lonely without her.. thank y for sharing

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      Era 5 weeks ago

      I lost my mom 15 days back in an accident.. People are saying that it was destiny.. But I know it was not. She was supposed to be alive.. Supposed to be with me.. I miss her talks.. I miss her love, her warmth, her touch, her laugh, her smile.. I want to hug her, kiss her and tell her how much I love her.. I want her back..

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      Clinton 5 weeks ago

      Dan, you will be reunited in heaven. That is how I feel and that is what faith is all about. I lost mom on August 3, 2017, I am still grieving in my own way but I asked her to make me strong and she did. So be strong, make her proud and remember all the good things that she taught you in life, she would have it no other way. God bless you.

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      DanAlabam 5 weeks ago

      Well it has been a year since my mother passed away, after reading the last few entries I feel embarrassed as I was truly blessed to have my mother strong and healthy for the majority of my life. You were my best friend and the only person in this world who really cared for me. God Bless your soul mom, and thank you for being such a beautiful mother, best friend and for all of your love. By the grace of God I pray we will all be reunited heaven.

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      Jordan 5 weeks ago

      Thank you for making this article. It has been two and a half years since she passed away and I'm fourteen so it's pretty rough for me going to school without thinking of her. She was the love of my life until she died when I was 12 going on thirteen and when I woke up to see her lying on the floor that day I was shocked with fear and I tried to get over the pain but no matter how much I tried to hide the paid or run away from the truth it always found its way to get me. I just wish I would be able to see her, feel her skin, and hear her voice just one more time. But on the night before she passed away her last words were ¨I love you¨ and that meant everything to me. I wanted to find better ways to grieve or get over her death but nothing worked until I read this, so I want to say thank you for the article. It's a inspiration to people who have lost their mothers as I have.

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      molaligngirma79@gmail.com 5 weeks ago

      It is only 30 days since I lost my mom. she was 43 when she pass away...she is unique for me and even can't worth her all other 7 children like me...she suffered a lot because of me and in my childhood period, I was hyperactive and disruptive. I firmly disagree with my father and she was beaten, abused and punished for my mistake and I am the only reason for her to reside far from her parent and family. she died of stomach cancer and suffered for 2 years with out diagnoses and eventually she diagnosed for cancer and underwent unsuccessful surgery and in the following day she's breath stopped while she was proudly chatting about her recovery with my families at the hospital.I tried to cope up with taking GOD's word by reading the bible and passing my day at work and sleeping the night with my friends....currently, I am suffering by reading the letter sent to me while I was studying @college, it contains love, encouragement, and hope.the worst thing is @her final day, she called me to the hospital and asked me 2 sit on her bed and hugged me shaken my hands and told me many things and she was following me on her eye all the night ......now I feel low and depressed in my home @night....i feel very lonely....that is why I searched your web on the internet.........

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      Lisa 5 weeks ago

      I just lost my mom on Aug 11, 2017, I was there holding her hand when she took her last breath and she was there when I took my first breath...I miss her so very much and really there are times I feel so guilty, we had to put her in a nursing home and I truly believe she had no clue where she was, she did have COPD, and beginning stages of demetia. My dad made the decision to start giving her morphine every 2 hours and of course we knew what the outcome of that would be to follow, I agree with my dad and now I feel as though it is my fault she is gone, my mom was always a active and the last few years she had no quality of life whatso ever and my dad who is in his late 80's did everything he could to take care of her but finally he had to do what he had to do and put her in a nursing home where she died 9 days later. Today my dad is still grieving and will for a very long time they bascially grew up together so after being with someone for over 70 years it is hard to just move on and not grieve...so for all of those of you out there that haven't lost your mom please stay close to her and talk to her everyday, take 2 or 3 minutes just to call and say I love you, cause tomorrow is never promised. Now I am praying that my dad just understand that we love him and we are all here for him...I haven't called him in a few days and I really need to but I am at a lose for words I don't know what to say it is really hard for me and I want to be there for my dad and help him thru this, I lost my husband of 12 years and this month will be 21 years since he has passed, I know what it is like to lose a spouse but not one that I had for 60 years plus.

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      Isabell 6 weeks ago

      I lost my mom this May. In the first two and half months I cried every day and I felt I was living in a bad dream and I will just wake up. The pain is still very intense, I am just learning to live with it. I somehow feel that a part of me died with her. I just hope thst I will have kids and I can give them everything, just like my mother gave to me.

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      Chrissy 6 weeks ago

      My mom was killed 8-12-17 my best friend. Pain is incommunicable and my life is a mess. Everyone seems to be critical and the coments that go "well its tuff but what about your kids? .. they need their motther as well" make me feel horrible and shamed which only pushes more weight on the pile of messy feelings im carrying around, which then becomes like some horrifying self fullfilling prophecy that is difficult to bear. I thought i was doing pretty well i mean i was feeling quite astonished at my ability to pull strenghth that i never even knew i had actually untill I started hearing these things coming from concerend love ones and it was ridiculous at first it angered me. But now i cant seem to do anything right and now i feel like becoming something that may need to be for real concerened about, and that seed is sprouting very ugly roots that are cultivated by my fears. And now i feel ive made grieving take a back seat to my natural more comfortable self blaming and self hating self sabotaging mindset. But then i read this article and it helped thank you. It helped a lot.

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      Bhuvana 6 weeks ago

      I lost my mom on the 8th of April 2017. It has been 4 months now and the whole period is seeming blurry.She always wanted to see me achieve something in life so I decided to do my masters in psychology despite of all the difficulties..I really pray that she find peace and look after my father and me and help me build myself..

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      Kayla 6 weeks ago

      I lost my mom on 08/13/17 and its soo hard didn't expect to loose her soo soon, so everyday I am missing her and hurting looking for ways to find peace.

      -Thanks for sharing your experience.

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      Clinton 7 weeks ago

      I lost my mom on August 3, 2017. She was 92. I was her caregiver for the past 7 years plus since her health started to go down hill but I never regretted it and I would have done it again with no remorse whatsoever. She was such a sweet lady, I miss her very much. My younger sisters seemed to have been closer to dad but I was very close to my mom. They say that usually happens, boy's are attached more to their mom's and girl's more to their dad's and I think that is true. Before she passed, she and I had a one on one talk, she answered me only with uh ha and um's with a gentle hold of my hand and I asked her to be by my side and make me strong through this ordeal. She did! I believe that she is still with me, very close and I can feel her presence. Our family religious beliefs are very strong, I know that she is watching over us and hopefully I can get over the grief that I am holding within me to be let loose soon and have a happy life knowing that my mom will be always by my side. To her I say, "I love you, Mom". God bless.

      Your loving son.

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      Macada 7 weeks ago

      I lost my mum June 3rd, 2017. I think about her every day. I was her caregiver for 4 years and the last 9 months of her life I had to put her in a nursing home. I went to see her every morning. I went and saw her the morning she died, she was not conscious but they told me hearing was the last sense to go, so I leaned over and spoke my final good-byes in her ear and kissed her cheek several times as I was speaking to her. Then I left the room and about 10 minutes later then nurse came and told me my mum just died. I believe my mum heard my final words to her and she felt free to go.

      I feel so much physical and emotional pain sometimes I wonder if I will make it. There is such a huge void in my life. I want to get past the guilt of putting her in a nursing home so I can focus on all the happy memories. There will never be closure.. only acceptance. I believe it will slowly get easier not having her here but there will never be closure.

      I visited her out at the cemetery, she was cremated and she is in a niche in a gazebo, so I purchased a niche right across from her so when I die we will be close to each other for all eternity.~

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      Crystal 7 weeks ago

      I lost my Mom 6 months ago...thank you for this ❤️

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      Veronica 7 weeks ago

      I lost my mom two days ago. She's been in and out of hospitals for the last two months. On Saturday, we got the call from the doctors that we dreaded. After experiencing an excruciating night of pain, doctors had to put her in full sedation and on a ventilator. We saw her one week prior to this and she was laughing and telling us that she'll make it through. I talked to her on Friday on the phone. She was in good spirits again. Then in less than 24 hours, she was literally on life support. My sister and I had to give the doctors permission to remove the meds keeping her alive and just make her comfortable. We held her hand as her heart stopped. I spent those last hours trying to memorize everything about her face, her hands, her eyelashes and eyebrows. She's gone now and I'm back home where she lived with my husband and kids for the last 10 years. I'm in such pain right now. My heart literally hurts. I don't know how people go on. It's a bit of a comfort to read that there are so many others going through the same thing. In our pain, we are united. I understand all of you so much. If I met you on the street, we would just have to make eye contact and I'd get you.

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      annie 7 weeks ago

      i lost my mom 14 year ago... i realizing that i am strong now when you wrote in this qoute

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      Mira 7 weeks ago

      I lost my mom six days ago. Thank you for the write up.

      :)

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      Barbara 7 weeks ago

      I lost my mum on the 15th August I have walked around in a bubble since the kids keep me busy but I would do anything to call her and chat about the weather. I feel like no one knows what to say to me so they just avoid me.

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      Sibu 7 weeks ago

      I lost my Mom on the 30th of June 2017. It has been a month and a couple of months since. I think I'm literally losing my mind. Not a single day goes by without thinking and crying over her passing. I smile and laugh a lot with people but the minute I am by myself I have this pain in my chest. I want to scream. It still feels like sometimes she's still a phone Call away. I haven't deleted her phone number and I feel so alone. Surrounded by people who have no idea what I'm going through. I have accepted that it won't get better I will just get used to the pain of never seeing her again. And no matter how many sibblings you have, you will realise that non of you will feel and react the same way to the loss, yes we all lost a mother but we don't all relate the same to the loss. It's painful and very hard to get used to. Yes mom was sick for roughly six months then suddenly she dies. I can't believe how fast it happened. it really feels so unfair.

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      Geralen 7 weeks ago

      I lost my mom on August 11,2017. A woman ran a red light and hit my mom then she had cardiac arrest they couldn't revived her. She died in the Emergency room. It was so sudden the night before we we're discussing purchasing a condo so she could moved back with me after living by herself for 18 yrs by herself. It never happened. It so painful losing my mom unbearable pain.

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      Mark 7 weeks ago

      My sister and husband rewrote my moms will 7 years ago ...racked up her credit cards stole all her retirement account ....didn't tell my mom she had lung cancer for 1 full year so it spread faster sold her house 50 grand under value and six weeks later my mom dies in Florida after they dragged her from her home in new York and away from all her friends .....this is grand larceny and premeditated murder and the worthless sheriff police and adult protection services did shit to protect my mom .....she died may 3 2013. .I'm 51 and her youngest son and my fuckin anger and grief pain and frustration is off the charts ....finally spoke to grief counselor and that pissed me off more ......horrible

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      Leo 7 weeks ago

      Than you Janet

      I will start the process of reachin-out to a counselor tomorrow

      Thank you

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      Janet 8 weeks ago

      Leo, you cannot end your life. Please reach out to a grief counselor who can be found through your local social services agency. Just Google "social services agency" in your town and you will find someone who can help you through this.

      My Mom has been gone for 2-1/2 years now and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of her. She had memory loss at the end of her life but she still knew me, had her great sense of humor, beautiful smile, and words of wisdom. How can I forget that?

      At her funeral I read thoughts that I had actually prepared several years before her passing. I talked about how she rocked me and held me as a child, about how she cared for me and my brother, about how she always wanted to right every wrong that came into our lives not only as children but also as adults.

      Last night, I attended a meeting at my Church where we are trying to begin a grief group. I brought in a grief counselor whose words were: "Grief isn't supposed to leave you. It may diminish over time but it never leaves you."

      Bless you, Leo, and please look for some counseling and reach out to someone who can listen and advise you.

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      Dona-Baltimore, MD.- now living in the EU 8 weeks ago

      I sit here after reading the post, engulfed in tears, and fighting the pain. The moment I feel it coming on, I suppress it. It has been 19 months, and I too just want one more hug, one more kiss, one more sound of her beautiful voice, one more moment to smell her perfume, hold her hand. She was INDEED the BEST Mother on the planet. She was the organizer-the do-er-the everything-dance lessons, girl scouts, trips, picnics, school projects, the list is infinite. She was the BEST cook in the world. Made the BEST Maryland crabcakes. I still each day have a moment, where I simply cannot believe that she is gone. She was as brave, and as strong to the bitter end of her life as I remember her always being all throughout her life. Her name IS Laura. The most beautiful part of my LIFE.

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      Leo 8 weeks ago

      Thank you Jaime

      Thank you so much