Jealous Mothers: Why Some Women Get Envious of Their Own Daughters

Updated on September 29, 2018
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My insecure mother was jealous of my sister and me and never wanted us to outshine her. She wanted us to do well...but not too well.

Moms can get jealous of a daughter's youth, beauty, accomplishments, and opportunities.
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Are You Experiencing Maternal Jealousy?

  • Is your relationship with your mother strained, but you don't understand why?

  • Is your mom competitive with you?

  • Is she uninterested in your classes, your career, your social life, and your kids?

  • Do you play the part of the parent in your relationship, giving her attention, advice, and reassurance?

  • Does she have a need to put you down and put you in your place?

If this dynamic sounds all too familiar, you may be on the receiving end of maternal jealousy. Because you didn't understand what you were experiencing, you may have long been confused about the relationship with your mom. You may have lived a childhood where you often felt alone, abandoned, and sad.

Debunking the Maternal Archetype

The maternal archetype is one of a woman who's always sacrificing, supporting, loving, and doing for her children. In reality, though, our moms are humans with all the faults, frailties, and confused feelings that come with that mortal state. While rarely discussed in polite company, the subject of moms being jealous of their daughters is one that's intrigued me for a long time due to my rocky relationship with my own mother. For as long as I can remember, she has waged a one-sided rivalry against my sister and me, fueled by her deep insecurity and undeniable envy.

Talking about maternal jealousy is perhaps the ultimate taboo, inimical to all we hold dear about motherhood and want to believe about mother love, especially that of a mother for her daughter. While maternal jealousy is a freighted topic, it’s not a rarity.

— Peg Streep, author of "Daughter Detox: Recovering From an Unloving Mother and Reclaiming Your Life"

Outshining Mom Is a Big No-No

Our mother has always found it intolerable when my sister and I outshine her in any way. When I had my first child at 36, I thought it would finally give my mom and me an opportunity to grew closer and bond over a new family member. But true to form, she became envious of the attention I was getting as a new mom and resentful that my focus was now on the baby and not her. The day after my son was born she took off on a spontaneous trip with her new boyfriend, signaling to me that she didn't intend on playing a significant role in my infant's life.

In those early days, she was infuriated when I nursed my son because she hadn't breastfed my siblings and me. When my boy grew older, she'd shut me down whenever I tried to relate a cute story about him. When he was diagnosed with autism at four, she wanted me to refuse the early intervention services he needed. Instead of bringing us together, the experience of me having a child pulled us further apart as she forced me to choose between her and him.

Envy comes from people's ignorance of, or lack of belief in, their own gifts.

— Philosopher Jean Vanier

Blaming Yourself for Mom's Envy

While growing up, a girl may realize the relationship with her mom is strained, but the idea that it's caused by maternal jealousy is not even considered. Instead, she may blame herself, thinking she's unworthy of love and attention. She may stop striving because her achievements are met with anger, ridicule, or silence. She may suffer from depression and anxiety like I did. It's not until she gets older and wiser (and, perhaps, seeks therapy) that she realizes her mom has been acting out of envy. That's when all she's been through starts to make sense.

I didn't truly see the depths of my mother's jealousy until I became a parent myself. I didn't feel any competitiveness with my sons—only love—and relished, not resented, their time in the spotlight. I didn't feel any of the rivalry with them that my mom had with me and my sister. Not experiencing a hint of competition with my boys made me realize just how sick my mom's relationship with her daughters was. In talking with girlfriends and reading what experts had to say, I found five key reasons why mothers get jealous of their daughters, some quite normal and others quite disturbed.

Normal or healthier mothers are proud of their children and want them to shine. But a narcissistic mother may perceive her daughter as a threat. If attention is drawn away from the mother, the child suffers retaliation, put-downs, and punishments. The mother can be jealous of her daughter for many reasons: her looks, her youth, material possessions, accomplishments, education and even the young girl’s relationship with the father.

— Karyl McBride, author of "Will I Ever Be Good Enough? Healing the Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers"

1. She's a Narcissist

While there are normal, natural reasons for moms to get jealous of their daughters, narcissism is not one of them. It's extreme and destructive and damages the child in profound ways. According to psychotherapist, Jasmin Lee Cori, a narcissistic mom's envy leaves a girl feeling unloved, abandoned, and confused. She develops no sense of self and keeps her voice silent.

My sister and I grew up with a narcissistic mother and it left us both with crippling low self-esteem. She'd compare us to her and always found us coming up short. She'd nitpick our appearance—criticizing our weight, hair, skin, clothes, and makeup. She was a great beauty in her own estimation and was troubled by her daughters not being the same. After picking apart our looks, she'd then wonder why we didn't have confidence to take on the world—finding boyfriends, becoming popular at school, and getting part-time jobs.

Her jealousy continued when we were adults and became mothers ourselves. Our homes were never clean enough, our meals never healthy enough, our kids never well-mannered enough. She'd remember her days as a mother when everything was rosy (not true) and she was super-woman (not true) and wonder why we couldn't do the same. It boosted her ego to find us lacking.

A daughter knows something is wrong in the relationship with her mom but jealousy doesn't come to mind.
A daughter knows something is wrong in the relationship with her mom but jealousy doesn't come to mind. | Source

2. She's Going Through Menopause

While jealousy from a narcissistic mother is extreme and destructive, envy from a mom going through menopause is normal and to be expected. Mother Nature plays a cruel trick on many moms, having them go through the traumatic change of life while their daughters bloom into young adulthood. A mom may feel less womanly, desirable, and relevant during menopause as she transitions from being fertile to infertile. She experiences physical changes that make her feel less attractive such as weight gain, drier skin, thinner scalp hair, and coarser facial hair. She may feel more anxious and less confident.

It's only natural that she may envy her teenage daughter, who's becoming sexier as she reaches the peak of her beauty. She may see her daughter attracting the attention of men when she no longer does. She may envy all that's ahead of her child and worry her life is going downhill.

I coined the phrase Perceived Transfer of Sexuality (PTS) to describe a phenomenon that is prevalent among my patients, regardless of background or socioeconomic status. PTS is a feeling that many moms have in regards to their daughters somehow taking away their own sexuality. In PTS, perception can lead to the feeling of competition between a mother and her daughter and thus be responsible for some of the most volatile interactions ever seen.

— Dr. Charles Sophy, psychiatrist and author

3. She's Overly Possessive of Her Husband

Some women feel territorial about their husbands and don't want to share them with anyone, even their own daughters. When I taught preschool, I was always impressed by dads who'd set aside special time to have “dates” with their daughters—taking them to the movies, having a tea party together, or going to the zoo. It was typically the wife's idea to encourage this ritual, and she often did the necessary planning to make it a reality. These moms loved their girls immensely and wanted them to reap the immense benefits of having a strong father-daughter bond.

Insecure women, however, can't see beyond their own needs. They want to keep their husbands to themselves, getting jealous when their daughters encroach on their turf. To avoid conflict with his wife, a husband might cave to her weaknesses. He may consciously or unconsciously neglect his fatherly duties and push his daughter to the side. As a result, his daughter is left without a healthy, loving connection with either parent. She grows up feeling like an interloper in her own family but doesn't know why.

4. She Regrets Her Unfulfilled Desires

Dr. Charles Sophy, a renowned family and child psychiatrist, argues that some moms get jealous when they see their daughters enjoying more opportunities and freedoms than they had. At middle age, a mom probably regrets some things she did in life and, even more significantly, things she didn't do. Perhaps, she was too scared to take risks, played it safe, and now laments it.

She see her daughter with unlimited opportunities in front of her and wishes she could be young again. She may envy the new freedoms young women have today to explore their sexuality, delay parenthood, enter male-dominated professions, buy their own homes, and become self-sufficient. She may wish she had succeeded in areas where her daughter now flourishes—playing sports, hanging with friends, dating, getting good grades, and being self-confident.

A mother may be envious of the new possibilities that are open to young women today.
A mother may be envious of the new possibilities that are open to young women today. | Source

What Does “Parentified” Mean?

A “parentified” child experiences a role reversal, becoming the parent to her own mother, father, or both. Because the parent is depressed, mentally ill, or unable to function after a divorce, the child steps in to become the emotional caretaker. She is forced to grow up too fast, experiencing a lot of stress at a time when life should be care-free. She often becomes an adult with profound psychological struggles including anger, depression, and anxiety.

5. She's Emotionally Immature

A mother who's emotionally immature lacks the empathy necessary to care about her daughter. She's psychologically stunted and sees her daughter as competition. When her daughter is successful, she reacts with jealousy—more like a green-eyed sibling than a proud parent. An emotionally immature mother is egocentric. She sees herself as the sun and her children as planets orbiting around her. In her mind, that is the natural order of things and she becomes frustrated if it changes.

Peg Streep, author of Daughter Detox: Recovering From an Unloving Mother and Reclaiming Your Life, says a jealous mom sees her daughter as a rival. Her envy grows greener when her child eclipses her in areas where she once felt special, accomplished, and superior. If mom, for example, was always considered a great beauty, she may get distressed when her daughter transforms from an awkward pubescent into a stunning teen. If mom was hailed as a fantastic home cook but now her daughter excels at culinary school, she may feel like her identify is being stripped away by someone younger and more accomplished.

This happened between my sister and my mother with interior design. When my sister bought a magnificent home and received kudos for how she decorated it, my mom couldn't hide her competitiveness. She'd interrupt the flattering comments to point out this flaw or that in how the furniture was arranged or how the walls were painted. She had always been known as the one in our family with the artistic flair, and my sister's talent in that area was beyond threatening to her.

From an early age, I learned to get attention from my mother by focusing on her. She would chat with me forever as long as she was the subject matter. If I brought up things happening in my life, she'd abruptly end the conversation. Her behavior turned me into a parentified daughter as I took on the role of advisor and confidant while she played the needy, self-absorbed kid. Even today, I refer to my mother as the teenage daughter I never had!

The Parentified Daughter Is Explained

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This Book Helped Me Finally Find Peace and Understanding With a Jealous and Emotionally Detached Mother

The Emotionally Absent Mother, Updated and Expanded Second Edition: How to Recognize and Heal the Invisible Effects of Childhood Emotional Neglect
The Emotionally Absent Mother, Updated and Expanded Second Edition: How to Recognize and Heal the Invisible Effects of Childhood Emotional Neglect

When I became a parent for the first time at 36, I hoped the new baby would create a close bond between my mom and me. When she became jealous of my new maternal role, it made me look for answers. My search led me to this book and the concept of emotionally absent mothers. While reading it, I felt like the author knew me and my situation intimately. I often needed to put it down and walk away because it overwhelmed me with feelings of sadness. But, most of all, it brought me peace, knowing I wasn't alone in growing up with such a mom.

 

This content is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and is not meant to substitute for formal and individualized advice from a qualified professional.

Questions & Answers

  • Why do these mothers hate their daughters and not their sons?

    It's not a matter of mothers hating their daughters but having a jealousy and rivalry with them. Moms don't feel the same competitiveness with their sons because they don't identify with them as strongly. It's perfectly normal that mothers feel twinges of envy from time to time as it's a basic human emotion. This is especially true when their daughters enjoy experiences in life they didn't: career opportunities, financial successes, travel to exotic places, etc.

    Emotionally unhealthy moms, however, feel more than twinges of jealousy. My mother, for instance, felt intense rivalry with my sister and me because she was incredibly insecure. She needed us to make decisions similar to hers in order to validate her life. Not surprisingly, we went to extremes to copy our mother's path so we'd win her love and approval. Sadly, we both became teachers like her even though neither one of us was suited to that profession. My sister got married at the same age as our mom (22), had the same number of children (3), and sent them to the same Catholic schools where our mom sent us. Even though my sister went above and beyond to get my mom's stamp of approval, she never did as my mother alternated between being envious of her and highly critical of her.

    When moms get jealous of their daughters, it's best for their daughters to distance themselves. I moved away from my mom (both physically and emotionally) after having my own kids. She had been jealous of the attention I showed them and I felt caught in the middle. When I thought about it, though, I knew it was time for me to grow up, choose my husband and sons, and start a healthy life away from mom. It was the best decision I ever made and contributed greatly to a strong marriage and happy family life.

© 2017 McKenna Meyers

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      Alibababa 

      5 hours ago

      I'm 42 and only recently realized my mother was and still is a narcissist. I grew up constantly being criticized, humiliated, never allowed to have an opinion or express any emotions, very repressed which caused me to internalize everything I was feeling, was always put down, she never told me she loved me, never hugged me, anything I did that I was proud of was soon shut down on me leaving me feeling ashamed and worthless. I have gone through my whole life with no self confidence, very angry, fast to retaliate, and have a massive fear of abandonment. Every relationship I've had has been pretty unhealthy, I think due to my behaviour. I have no real sense of who I am and no direction in my life, I started taking hard drugs at the age of 15 and still to this day use them. I always felt she was competing against me especially in male company. Friends used to say she was jealous of me and now I can see that, but dont understand why. She has done extremely nasty things to destroy me, and feel she is still plotting to destroy me, even though there's nothing more really she can take from me. If I want to do something to better myself she will give me 100 reasons why I can't do it, instead of being a supportive and encouraging mother and being proud that I'm trying to get somewhere in life, she will try every angle to make sure I don't do it. I've gone through life hating myself and wondering why I was the way I am, believing I had a few mental illnesses, such as ADHD, borderline personality disorder, PTSD, intermittent explosive disorder, but now I'm wondering whether it's really just the result of her abuse. I don't know how to heal from this, I feel it's a huge can of worms I really don't want to face or deal with, as it's very painful still

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      McKenna Meyers 

      5 months ago from Bend, OR

      Barbara, I'm in awe of all you've had to carry and the strength you've shown to survive. You not only had a jealous mother but an emotionally disturbed one. You have every right to be angry. I hope this can be a starting point for you to write down these incidents and gradually free yourself of them. I'm sure your mother's death has triggered a lot of painful memories. I admire you for dealing with your rage in a constructive way. Take care!

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      Barbara 

      5 months ago

      My mother passed last year after a long life. Thankfully she refused to come see me after I was diagnosed with psoriatic arthritis as she was afraid it was something else and she might catch it. No amount of explaining that an autoimmune disease isn’t contagious would convince her. Looking back that was to my benefit l, as now I don’t miss her so much. What I’ve found mostly since she is gone, is that I am angry. Angry how she treated me as an adult, and as a child. She was big on slapping me, & then backhanding me again. If she happened to be in the kitchen & had a wet dishcloth in her hand when she got mad - I didn’t even have to be in the kitchen at the same time - when I walked in she would come across my face with that dishcloth. I recall being slapped so many times before beginning school at age six. She kept that up until I was a teenager and I grew larger than she was. She used the silent treatments too, additionally telling me she couldn’t even stand to look at me. When I was around 12, I cooked a peach cobbler. When my sister bragged on it, mother asked if it was as good as hers. Sis didn’t say yes, just said it was really good. A couple of weeks go by & I decide to cook another & go to the spot where I had put the recipe. Mother had thrown it away, yet when I asked if she knew where it was she used her standard lie “I don’t know what you’re talking about”. I made straight A’s all through school. The educators wanted me to skip a grade & mother said no. Teachers would write complimentary things in my report cards, & Mom would read them out loud, followed with a sarcastic remark or guffaw. I took a job before driving age, she berated me all the way to my first day. I quit at the end of the day because I knew I couldn’t take another morning of that. At fifteen I took another part job which I could drive to after school. This time she stated I took it only to be around “my no good friends” - which is the way she had described all my friends, whether she knew them or not. She never let me close my bedroom door & made clear that if I did she would take the it off its hinges. According to her a closed door meant I was up to something to be ashamed of. If I wrote a letter, she would take it out of the mailbox, read, & throw away (another “I don’t know what you’re talking about). I wanted to play basketball in middle school. Since she was never athletic, she didn’t want me to be, so she bought athletic shoes for me 3 sizes to big. As a result I was constantly made fun of (clowns feet) & didn’t make the team as I was always tripping. She told us kids many times lies that she wanted us to tell others. Skip to adulthood. When my only child was born, after seeing her for the first time, the first words out of my mother’s mouth was “oh look there’s a bad spot” (there was a light birthmark on her ear).

      I could just go on & on. I think I may need to journal to be able to FINALLY turn loose of this lifetime of anger & hurt.

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      McKenna Meyers 

      6 months ago from Bend, OR

      Binita, I'm so glad you wrote your feelings down and had a good cry. Those are two very positive ways to release your emotions and make sense of your situation. I recommend you write in a journal each day about your feelings and become empowered in the process.

      You're grieving the loss of the mother you wanted but will never have. When you accept your mother as she is, you'll be able to let go of the stress and find peace. You need to stop longing for her unconditional love and embrace what you do have: the family that you and your husband created. This family is within your control, but your mother is not. You cannot change who she is.

      Whether it's cultural or not, you are enmeshed with your mother, and that's unhealthy. For the sake of your marriage, your kids, and yourself, you need to take a giant step backwards from her. It's not good for you to speak with her every day and have her visit for 3 months. It's disruptive to your psychological well-being and, therefore, unfair to your family. They need you to live in the present and not reach back into your childhood to repair the past.

      You may want to read my article called “5 Ways for Daughters to Heal From an Emotionally Absent Mother.”

      https://wehavekids.com/family-relationships/Learn-...

      Keep writing about your feelings and take good care of yourself!

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      Binita21 

      6 months ago

      I am literally in tears after reading this. No surprise that I am connecting this with my life and my mum.

      I am Indian origin and living in uk since past 17 years plus. Since I was 11 years old, I used to notice that my differentiated between me and my brother. I used to confront her. Occasionally she admitted that it’s her son who is going to look after when she will grow older ( that’s how it works in our culture) anyways we grew up and I studied well , got my post graduate degree , and Mum said wish my brother would be cleaver in study instead of me and I used to ask why ? She said , he would have generate better living for her and my father. It hurt. Sometimes I used to show her mirror , that how wrong she is , she used to get angry very quickly , either cry loudly or hurt herself. And then I apologise.

      When I was 17 year old, my mum and dad forced me to get married ( arrange marriage ) for 3 days I kept saying I won’t get marry at this age, the groom was from USA so this way they and my brother would get chance to come to USA ( due to blood relationship ) this is not possible for uk. I locked my self in room and only come out if needed , they used to come and force me to say yes to get married, I stood on my feet and kept refusing and warned them if they force me then I will go to police as 8m India , you have to be 18 to get married. Then they took emotional torture, and told me how bad I am as a daughter and not giving them chance to go to USA. Anyways ... luckily that groom refused me and then continued my studies. At the age 24, I got married ( arranged ) but I said YES for the reliance. And luckily we both love and understand each other very well. Soon after marriage , I joined him to Uk, where we worked hard and build our business and then home and have our family. At the time of my pregnancy, I called my parents at my house, they got struck by our business and wealth, first I tried to give away what they were demanding , and soon I realised that I can’t fulfill there demands always. And soon I started to say No .... the whole thing is so changed .. that’s 15 years ago and still it’s sour. Soon after my son’s birth, I had some allergy and couldn’t sleep for four days. I requested my mum to look after my son for one night ( they were in my home ) but another room , she denied and said I can’t do that, that’s your responsibility. Anyways ... when I didn’t buy many gifts for them , dad said we will go back with empty suitcases, made me feel guilty that I am not fulfilling my duty as a daughter. They used to run away from my house and making us look for them, as they don’t know the area or language so we were really worried.

      I lost m6 dad after few years. I refused to buy expensive gifts. But in returned I wasn’t much welcome at my mums house. If I go for 3-4 days with my family. My mum and brother makes plan for us to go elsewhere so we understand and move.

      I am very emotional person, and still talk to m7m everyday and expect that she will love me wholeheartedly. But the relationship is stil sour and in any case , I will not buy their love. But I want love as I am her daughter. She never have praised about how much my husband takes care of me and how much he loves me. Each time we go on holiday, she say... why spending money on holiday ? How fat I am , when I lost weight , she never praised me , infact that was the best achievement for me.

      If I say , mum I want to see you, she will it say , come home then , and then after talking same thing three four different ways, I directly ask , can I come, why you never invite me ? She says ,,, I haven’t said no , so I add but you never have said come either. And she keep quite.

      She has come and stayed at m6 home . 3 months at a time. I used to take her on holiday here and back home, after end of the holiday she said , I only came to please you otherwise holidays doesn’t interest me.

      My problem is , I want to be loved but without any condition and free of charge. I talk to her everyday , any during normal talk, if I said we made good profit by doing this, she feels right jealous, so I have to think before I say so I don5 make her jealous, but it shouldn’t be this way. She now compares my so. And my brother’s son with their study , that hurts

      I can still go on, but may be another day.

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      McKenna Meyers 

      7 months ago from Bend, OR

      S.M--Don't be so hard on yourself. I'm in my fifties and have just started sorting out these dynamics with my mother. You're way ahead of the game. Now that you have insight, you can tackle these issues, move forward, and not become a prisoner to your past.

      Part of becoming an adult is realizing that our moms are complicated human beings with insecurities, jealousies, and selfish desires just like everyone else. Like your mother and many others, my mom had fierce issues about food, her weight, and her body image. Not surprisingly, I inherited them all. If you could get a handle on those now (with professional help if needed), you'll save yourself years of struggle and heartache. It's only in the last few years that I've found peace with food. For decades, I had focused on dieting, exercising, and exerting willpower when I really needed to concentrate on my depression and anxiety.

      Remember self-esteem is built by challenging ourselves to do hard things and accomplishing new challenges. We have the power to become more confident women. It takes a lot of hard work, though, a willingness to take risks, and an ability to persevere after failure.

      Don't be too hard on your mom. Women in our society deal with enormous pressures to be thin and look beautiful. At the same time, we face enormous portions at restaurants and expectations to eat, drink, and be merry at the drop of a hat. It's a lot of crazy-making and unrealistic expectations for all of us.

      You have a wonderful life ahead of you. Embrace it!

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      S.M 

      7 months ago

      I was in tears when I read this article. I graduated college in December of last year and moved back home with mom and dad. I realized that I have this dependency issue regarding my mom about something in particular. Today, I told my mom that I was interested in working out just to get in shape and she responded: "I don't want you too because I am scared you'll look better than me." Now, I know I am a grown adult and will go work out if I feel like it but her response shook me then I started questioning my childhood and figured out that my mom was always the jealous type. As long as I remembered she has always felt insecure when it comes to her body. As long as I remembered she has always made negative comments related to my body then she would say something positive and it would confuse me. No wonder I had an eating disorder for two years as a teen and during my last three years in college. No wonder that now I have serious trust issues regarding relationships and low self-esteem. No wonder I have commitment issues. I am so frustrated that I figured this out now than years before. Thank you for writing and publishing this insightful post.

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      McKenna Meyers 

      8 months ago from Bend, OR

      Wendy, you're a wise woman to step back from your family and look at it in an objective way. So much of the time we just react to whatever is happening at the moment and don't look at the big picture. I know now that so much of my relationship with my mom was shaped by her alcoholic mom. I get that on an intellectual level and it helps immensely. On an emotional level, though, I still ache for a loving, nurturing mother. But, at least, I can be that for my kids. Thanks for writing and sharing.

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      Wendy 

      8 months ago

      Love your line about "Even today, I refer to my mother as the teenage daughter I never had!" Exactly what I have concluded after reading many books on this topic. It's all she can offer and I have learned to "accept it." I've also learned that she brought some baggage with her from childhood, but she also left some behind. That being that her mother would be critical of her weight and was never satisfied. It also reminds me of when I was a child

      we would go to family functions and my mother would always be in my grandmother's shadow; kinda like when someone is talking about you, but you are standing right there. It's the very reason I don't attend extended family functions with my mother. I could even go back a generation further. From what I've learned, my grandmother had a deadbeat father during the depression era, was one of 12 siblings and she was the oldest and had to care for them in a motherly role at a young age. Would make sense then that may be she wasn't valued much other than what she could provide, so when she found her opportunity as an adult to get validation, she got it at all costs.

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      McKenna Meyers 

      11 months ago from Bend, OR

      Cheryl, I'm sure it was painful to remember all that and write it down. In the long run, though, it will help you make sense of your life and move forward in a stronger, healthier way. As an objective someone reading it, I can feel your internal battle, wanting a relationship with your family but knowing it doesn't serve you well. I really don't see how having your parents in your life will benefit you or your child. In fact, I see the opposite. I hope you continue to write and work through your mixed feelings. Seeing a counselor would also be a great idea because you want to fully enjoy your husband and son and not let the past interfere with the present. You moved away, which was the right thing to do, and now you have a second chance to build the functional family you never knew. Please do this for yourself because you deserve to have peace and joy in your life. Much love to you.

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      Cheryl 

      11 months ago

      My mom does exactly this. I’ve lived in New Jersey for 10 years after meeting my now husband. I have 1 son, and my mom was not there for my pregnancy, she wasn’t there for the birth. She didn’t even call to see if I was ok after my c-section. Yet she should always call and complain about her not getting to see her grandchild so I told her to come and visit us in New Jersey she said she didn’t have any money so I offered to pay for the gas to get here (minded I’ve took flights, greyhounds, and drove to Ohio every 4/6 months) so after I offered the money then then said her car wouldn’t make the drive from Ohio. So then my husband offered to get her a rent a car she said she didn’t have car insurance, then we offered her flight tickets she tried to say my dad was scared of flights yet he took flights going to Vegas when I was younger. So then I ask since he was so “scared” how about she just come then she said she had too much to do. Then we offered her greyhound tickets and she did she couldn’t sit for so long. There was just no way around getting them here. Yet I was the bad persons because I couldn’t just up and move back to Ohio. It’s always excuses. My mom bought my brother 3 cars all which he wrecked never once bought be any such thing. My mom also hates me so bad she’s turned all my family members against me. My brother gets all the recognition yet she even signed papers for him to drop out of school after the 7th grade. Before he was about to go into the 8th grade she allowed him to drop out. My brother also flunked kindergarten and fourth grade. And was trouble in school constantly. I never got in trouble and the teachers loved me and that made my mom angry. I graduated high school a year early and went off to college although I never finished college I at least made an attempt. My mom and brother smoke cigerates and pot and that was something I never did. So they’d both get in my face and said I acted like I was better than them. They were only happy when I was crying or upset about something. If I did well on anything they’d be furious and find something to compare themselves to. My mom would call me fat, which I was 4”10 and 109lbs she’d say I’d be a nobody and I was a whore, and would keep saying I had a pooch belly. Her name calling made me very depressed and even my dad would make fun of me when ever I was on my period he say go fly away on my air plane wings referring to the wings on the maxi pad. My brother is 30 years old and still lives at home and has no relationship and no kids he had 1 girlfriend and he beat and chocked her and the cops were called and my mom stuck by his side. My mom has another child from a previous marriage and that kid was removed from my moms care from cps. She to this day says her ex husband kidnapped his child but I think there’s more than what’s being said and I’ll never know. My parents never told me they loved me unless it was to show off around other people. My brother always got cell phones and expensive shoes and clothes. My clothes most of them came from the thrift stores I did get some new ones every now and then but they had to be on sale or cheaply priced or from the clearance rack while my brother got Jordan’s or Nike air shoes and designer clothing. My mom would even tell lies to my dad so that he would hit me with the belt, one time I was so scared that my mom said she was going to tell my dad something I did when he got home from work and I remember being so scared that I stuffed a pillow inside my pants so that I wouldn’t feel the sting of the belt as bad. As I grew up my mom would never let me get a job she said I wasn’t fit to get any job and would say things to make me feel small. For years I wondered why I couldn’t work like all the other teens and my friends. And my family members would call me lazy and stupid and a retard because they thought I simply wasn’t trying when I really was my mom never let me turn in any application I had to hand them over to her then I found out she was just throwing them in the trash. Later after I got married it all made sense she was getting a social security disability on my name and when I was little I’d ask her about it and she got angry every time I’d bring it up she threw a glass ash tray at my face. After that I ever asked her about it out of fear. She lied to my dad too saying she wasn’t getting any gov assistance. So when I moved out I was trying to get health insurance because I was born with dislocated hips and born at 2 pounds. My mom smoked through out her whole pregnancy and it caused my pre mature birth yet she blames me saying it’s my own fault and because of me I made all her teeth fall out while she was pregnant because I took all her calcium. She said I was born early because her uterus was tilted too much. My moms 1st child and my younger brother also came out pre mature but they weighted at 4 and 5 pounds as I was 2 pounds. I’m sorry I’m all over the place with my post I’m going back to my childhood remembering different things. My dad also used to beat my mom and I was so scared I urinated in my bed once and the next morning I was whooped for “peeing the bed” me and my brother would be in bed and all a sudden you’d hear glass breaking or you’d hear my dad crank up the heavy rock music and they’d start screaming and fighting and me and my brother would run and shake and scream e wry time dad would punch Mom in the face or drag her around the house. It was always some sneaky stuff that my mom would do that set my dad off but I was scared to death around both of them. I may have been a happy kid on the outside and we seemed like a normal family but behind closed doors it was so different. My dad put my moms head through the apartment wall that my mom covered it up with a large picture frame. Then when I grew up I’d bring up the fights and the domestic violence to my mom and she say I was lying and none of it never happened. I remember so many nights my dad would be in a drunken rage and me and my brother would have to sleep all night in the car but my mom would never leave that man she was more worried about getting his money from him. My dad paid the rent and my mom was taking the rent money and spending it all and we ended up getting sued and evicted and my mom blames the landlord saying she was lying too. Everybody is lying but my mom. Everyone is at fault but my mom. No one is good enough and when someone is better off than she is”they’re stuck up” or “they think they got it all” the jealousy and rage really shows through my mom and my brother. I believe my parents were on other drugs as well that I’ll never know because I was so young at the time but I have my doubts. Anytime I was happy or I had something positive happen I was always put down. She’d squash anything that filled me with joy. Even today now I’m 31, I hardly hear from my mom or dad, and when I do hear from my mom she still puts me down or wants to gossip about someone. It’s never happy phone calls and my dad he just doesn’t want any involvement with his children he has 5 kids and isn’t in contact with any of them. They have no remorse and my mom even took all my gold I got over the years from family members. It’s just so many things I could write forever but deep down I get so sad and depressed when I see families together laughing in a restaruant or at the park, I feel a bit jealous myself when I see a father with their daughter. I’ve brought this up to my parents and all I got was the cold shoulder and a utter discrace response saying I was acting retarded. I wish my whole life that my family functioned normal. My mom wouldn’t even let me wash my clothes in warm water she removed the knob from the washer so that I could only use cold water. It just got to the point I had to move out of Ohio and far away from that state. I love Ohio but the people there are toxic. I also from being born at 2 pounds I walk with a limp and had many operations on my hips I was told by realitives that my dad shoved my mom down a flight of stairs when she was pregnant but Mom says no she says she didn’t even know she was pregnant with any of her kids?

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      McKenna Meyers 

      17 months ago from Bend, OR

      I'm sorry your mother does that, Lee. I know how much that hurts. My mother would sabotage me with that behavior when I was growing up and beyond. When I was all dressed up and ready to go somewhere—prom, a job interview, a musical performance—she'd nitpick my appearance. She'd point out a hair out of place or a tiny spot on my blouse. It would drive me nuts and make me so insecure. At least, you and I are now aware of that pattern and, while still annoying, it won't damage us like it once did.

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      Lee nichol 

      17 months ago

      I have a mother exacaly like'that when u look good or happy they try there best to put u down

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      Dora Weithers 

      21 months ago from The Caribbean

      This article is very insightful and your points really make sense. Thanks for the education on a topic to which I'm sure many women can relate.

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