How an Emotionally Absent Mother Impacts a Daughter: From Infancy to Adulthood
Did You Have an Emotionally Absent Mother?
Did you have a mother who believed that letting a baby “cry it out” was a sound practice to prevent a spoiled child?
Do you feel invisible as a kid because your mom never saw the real you?
Did your mom ignore, deny, or get frustrated by your feelings when you were a child and teen?
Do you now as an adult suffer from low self-esteem, find it hard to trust, and often feel numb and alone?
If nodding your head, you may have grown up with an emotionally absent mother and are struggling because of it. By examining what transpired during your childhood, you'll have a greater understanding of why you wound up feeling insecure, closed off, and empty. With new insight, you can take steps to become more open, vulnerable, and loving with yourself and others.
How Are Daughters Affected by Emotionally Absent Moms?
When my first-born son was a baby, my mother insisted I let him "cry it out" rather than pick him up and attend to his needs. This is what she did with my siblings and me, she boasted, letting us bawl until we were thoroughly exhausted and then fell soundly asleep. Doing otherwise, she explained, would spoil an infant.
When I rejected her advice and immediately went to my son's crib to pick him up, she pouted like a thwarted child. Ignoring my baby's cries went against every maternal instinct that flowed through my body. It made me wonder why it didn't have the same effect on my mother. How could she have heard the screams of my siblings and me and not felt propelled to soothe us?
It broke my heart to think of myself as an infant, calling out from the crib and getting no response. But, as the daughter of an emotionally absent mother, wasn't that initial neglect just the beginning of a long and painful pattern that existed throughout my life? Don't all daughters of emotionally absent moms feel that our inner-world got abandoned when we were growing up and beyond? Don't we all feel like we're crying out for attention but are consistently ignored? While we shouldn't become immobilized by our past, learning about its impact can help us develop self-awareness and a new-found strength as adults.
Emotionally absent mothers come with some variations, but the common theme is that they are insensitive to the emotional experience of their children. It is especially confusing in those cases where they appear, on the outside, to be involved parents—perhaps invested in the kids’ education, providing financial resources, and the like—and yet the children or adult children, when they respond honestly, report they do not feel loved or even known in any real way.— Jasmin Lee Cori, author of "The Emotionally Absent Mother"
The Early Years: Not Getting Our Basic Needs Met
We've all heard horrific stories about babies in orphanages who don't get picked up when they cry and become emotionally damaged because of it. They don't bond with their adopted parents. They have extreme fits of anger and suffer from depression. They mistreat the family pets, abuse their siblings, or mutilate themselves. But, what about those of us who weren't in orphanages but had parents who let us cry it out rather than responding to our needs?
While most mothers have a fierce maternal instinct to sooth their babies when they cry, emotionally detached ones don't. Fifty years ago, my mother and others like her followed the advice of John Watson, a behavioral psychologist, who warned that showering an infant with attention would result in a spoiled, whiny, and overly dependent child. In 1928, he published The Psychological Care of Infant and Child in which he instructed mothers to withhold maternal affection (in fact, chapter 3 of the text was titled "The Dangers of Too Much Mother Love"). Watson believed that holding, cuddling, and comforting only served to reinforce negative behaviors in youngsters. Picking up a screaming baby rewarded it for crying, for example, while hugging a frightened toddler encouraged him to be timid.
Not surprisingly, emotionally absent mothers were drawn to Watson's philosophy. It reinforced their reluctance to be demonstrative with their children. From the get-go, mothers like my own decided that a close mother-child bond was a bad thing, leaving their children to suffer the negative consequences of that for years to come.
Letting Babies "Cry It Out" May Alter Their Brain Structure
Recent findings in neuroscience provide overwhelming evidence about the critical importance of responding to a baby's cries. Infants who are allowed to bawl for long periods of time have abnormally high levels of the stress hormone, cortisol. The strain they endure in the early months of life may alter the structure of their brains. In an article called "Dangers of 'Crying It Out'" in Psychology Today, Dr. Darcia Narvaez writes, “With neuroscience, we can confirm what our ancestors took for granted--that letting babies get distressed is a practice that can damage children and their relational capacities in many ways for the long term. We know now that leaving babies to cry is a good way to make less intelligent, less healthy but more anxious, uncooperative and alienated persons who can pass the same or worse traits on to the next generation.”
It comes as no surprise that emotionally absent mothers are less likely to be responsive to their babies' needs. They're less likely to cuddle their infants, sing them lullabies, read to them, and breastfeed them. Erik Erikson, the respected developmental psychologist and psychoanalyst of the 20th century, wrote extensively about the importance of a child's first year. He said that youngsters whose needs are met by attentive parents will develop a sense of trust in the world and a hopeful spirit. But those whose needs go unmet will become mistrustful and struggle with feelings of insecurity and worthlessness. For us daughters of emotionally absent mothers, the latter sounds all too familiar.
The Teen Years: Not Being Seen, Not Feeling Special
When my mother was eight, her mom died and her father sent her to a Catholic boarding school run by nuns. She stayed there until she graduated from high school. That experience shaped her life and influenced the way she parented my three siblings and me. When we were kids, our basic needs were met—clothes, food, and shelter—but unconditional love and acceptance were missing. The four of us kids were interchangeable human beings to her—all treated the same and never seen for our unique characteristics and interests.
She got angry and frustrated when we wanted emotional support as if we were asking for something she just couldn't give. This denial of our feelings was especially hard on my sister and me because we were both shy and sensitive. As a child, I felt invisible, lonely, and unlovable. It all caught up with me during my teen years when I suffered from depression, gained weight, and had few friends.
Emotionally Absent Mothers Don't Provide a Mirror
In , Jasmin Lee Cori writes about the different roles a good mom plays in the life of her daughter. One of the most significant is acting as a mirror, letting the child see herself by providing a reflection. This is done by being a compassionate and attentive listener, hearing what the youngster is saying, taking it seriously, understanding her thoughts, and empathizing with her feelings. The daughter is seen as a unique person—loved and valued for who she is. She becomes confident, competent, and eager to take on the world. A daughter without a parental mirror often has low self-esteem, causing her a lifetime of struggles with romantic relationships, friendships, and career. The Emotionally Absent Mother
Many of us with emotionally absent mothers didn't experience mirroring. Our moms were too busy, stressed-out, or checked out to see and appreciate us. My sister and I were introverts who preferred solitary activities such as reading, writing, drawing, and hiking. I struggled with social anxiety as a teen. But, throughout our growing up years, our mother insisted we were extroverts and treated us as such. When a parent sees you as a frog when you're actually a butterfly, it's painful and confusing. You grow up not knowing yourself.
Emotional neglect can take many forms, from a parent having unrealistically high expectations or not listening attentively, to invalidating a child’s emotional experiences to the point he or she begins to feel self-doubt. When a parent is not emotionally attuned to a child, there is no mirror held up, no positive reflection being shared with the child. Developing a positive sense of self, then, becomes more challenging for the child.— Dhyan Summers, Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist
The Adult Years: Understanding the Truth and Finding Hope
When my son was diagnosed with autism, it was the most difficult period of my life. But now, 12 years after that hellish time, I know it was meant to be. My son's diagnosis forced me to come to terms with having an emotionally absent mother—something I fought my entire life. The little girl inside of me stopped blaming herself—thinking she was ugly, stupid, and unlovable—and finally realized her mother was incapable of giving her the love and support she always wanted and needed.
My mother had always let me know my feelings didn't matter and, therefore, I didn't matter. When I turned to her for comfort mom-to-mom when my son got diagnosed, she reacted in her typical fashion: cold, angry, and annoyed. She shut me down, not wanting to hear my worries and my pain. It was the pattern I'd known all my life, but this time I reacted differently. I saw how little concern she had for my son—the most precious and innocent little boy in the entire world—and I knew it wasn't about me. It had always been about her and her inability to connect on a deeper, more profound level with anyone. She was wounded just as I was wounded.
From that day forward, I started reading all I could about emotionally absent mothers. I took notes, wrote in my journal, went on lots of long walks, and shed buckets of tears. I stopped loathing myself and started treating myself with love and respect. The idea of self-care had never been a part of my existence until then when I started eating right, exercising, shopping for cute clothes, putting on makeup, and making myself a priority. Nothing my mother said or didn't say would ever affect me again. I was free from her and moving forward with a new-found determination that my sons would not have an emotionally absent mom like I had.
But now, as an adult, you can choose to heal your emotional neglect. And when you do, you are setting yourself on a clear path to being happier and healthier and being a more connected, effective parent to your children.
Making the decision to heal your emotional neglect is like saying to many generations going back in your family line: “The buck stops here. I will not deliver this burden to my children.— Dr. Jonice Webb, author of "Running on Empty: Overcome Your Childhood Emotional Neglect"
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This content is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and is not meant to substitute for formal and individualized advice from a qualified professional.
© 2018 McKenna Meyers